I have rediscovered my love for tom petty, not that i ever forgot but i just can't stop listening to

"yer so bad" right now...

"you're so bad...the best thing i ever had... in a world gone mad..you're so bad."

oh my...

i love this song. it tugs at my heart strings.

i had to draw it, not to mention I have a huge crush on King Tuff <3

another song i'm loving right now...

I really just want to always base my haircut off of this video until the day I die.

what else, what else...

Recording songs with Curtis has been fun, even if noone will ever hear them...

Also,trying to learn how to screenprint my drawings on some shirts and bags, but it's kind of hard for me to get started because I can't really afford to spend the money to get the screens and ink and all of the shirts and bags. If only some generous person would give me like $1,000.00 Just to start out I could get so much done. wah wah wah..

Two more days of work and I am off to EL PASO. So excited to see the desert, the mountains, my old friends, and a shit ton of Iranian people and good food.

Also I think I just need to be around my dad and stepmom right now and have them cook for me and be able to do laundry not at the laundromat. The little things...

However, I'm missing my south carolina people and wishing I was going to be at Jill's with everyone! How weird that there might be a baby there this year! (SHAZ..)

luv luv luuuuuv

sara

i've miss you, gummybears!

thanksgiving is soon upon us. oh, the holidays. such a magical time. when we can gather..friends..family.. loved ones. and feast! it is the time when we look back on the year and give thanks... in a way i feel as though i am a pilgrim. i have traveled far with nothing but the clothes on my back and a few close family members. i am threatened by disease and famine. i eat strange food. and, occasionally, i am cold. but, i am strong. i am strong because i love this new america i have discovered!
ohhh ohh! we are all pilgrims on this land. oh, this glorious land!
i want you all to know, that you are in my thoughts. and, if i prayed, you would be there too.
<3 erin

ps happy birthday jeanine. im in love with you.

lately

xo

sara

Spread Love its the Brooklyn Way

Okay, so I finally got the INTERNET.
Before today I've had to search for it. It was a long and terrible journey (but i discovered that china town has 5 interenet cafes on every block that are all packed with asian people.)

Fuck this place, I need a job and am going to end up working at Mcdonalds. (no really, I considered it just to make money fast while looking for other jobs)

I've been listening to Biggie on the Subway to make me happy.
It works.
Troy saw a guy riding a motorized bike with a "big subwoofer and 2 mid-range" speakers attached to the back blasting Juicy. He said everyone on the street started singing along.
wish i was there.


wish you were here.


love, erin

dear diary

these are my top favorite love songs... some of them.

I will make a mix. who wants one?

luv sara

number 1

beach boys- don't worry baby

why?

well here are the lyrics

Well its been building up inside of me

For oh I don't know how longI don't know why But I keep thinkingSomething's bound to go wrongBut she looks in my eyesAnd makes me realizeAnd she says "Don't worry baby"Don't worry baby Don't worry baby Everything will turn out alright Don't worry baby Don't worry baby Don't worry babyI guess I should've kept my mouth shut When I started to brag about my car But I can't back down now because I pushed the other guys too far She makes me come alive And makes me wanna drive When she says "Don't worry baby"Don't worry baby Don't worry baby Everything will turn out alright Don't worry baby Don't worry baby Don't worry baby She told me "Baby, when you race today Just take along my love with you And if you knew how much I loved you Baby nothing could go wrong with you"Oh what she does to me When she makes love to me And she says "Don't worry baby"Don't worry baby Don't worry baby Everything will turn out alright Don't worry baby Don't worry baby Don't worry baby

number 2

roxy music-pyjamarama

Couldnt sleep a wink last night Oh how i´d love to hold you tight They say you have a secret life Made sacrifice your key to paradise Never mind, take the world by storm Just boogaloo a rhapsody divine Take a sweet girl just like you How nice if only we could bill and coo I may seem a fool to you for everything I say or think or do How could I apologize for all those lies? The world may keeps us far apart but up in heaven, angel You can have my heart Diamonds may be your best friend But like laughter after tears I´ll follow you to the end

number 3

john lennon-woman

Woman I can hardly express, My mixed emotion at my thoughtlessness, After all I'm forever in your debt, And woman I will try express, My inner feelings and thankfullness, For showing me the meaning of succsess, oooh well, well, oooh well, well, Woman I know you understand The little child inside the man, Please remember my life is in your hands, And woman hold me close to your heart, However, distant don't keep us apart, After all it is written in the stars, oooh well, well, oooh well, well, Woman please let me explain, I never mean(t) to cause you sorrow or pain, So let me tell you again and again and again, I love you (yeah, yeah) now and forever, I love you (yeah, yeah) now and forever, I love you (yeah, yeah) now and forever, I love you (yeah, yeah)...

okay, but as you know i love john lennon... so woman also ties with ...

number 4

john lennon-oh yoko

In the middle of the night In the middle of the night I call your name Oh Yoko, oh Yoko, my love will turn you on In the middle of the bath In the middle of the bath I call your name Oh Yoko, oh Yoko, my love will turn you on My love will turn you on In the middle of a shave In the middle of a shave I call your name Oh Yoko, oh Yoko, my love will turn you on In the middle of a dream In the middle of a dream I call your name Oh Yoko, oh Yoko, my love will turn you on My love will turn you on In the middle of a cloud In the middle of a cloud I call your name Oh Yoko, oh Yoko, my love will turn you onOh Yoko, oh Yoko, oh Yoko, oh Yoko

number 5

eric clapton-bell bottom blues

okay these are two videos, because come on, how could i resist not posting the second one? who are these children and why are they so awesome??

Bell bottom blues, you made me cry. I dont want to lose this feeling. And if I could choose a place to dieIt would be in your arms. Do you want to see me crawl across the floor to you? Do you want to hear me beg you to take me back? Id gladly do it becauseI dont want to fade away.Give me one more day, please. I dont want to fade away. In your heart I want to stay. Its all wrong, but its all right.The way that you treat me baby.Once I was strong but I lost the fight.You wont find a better loser.Bell bottom blues, dont say goodbye. Im sure were gonna meet again, And if we do, dont you be surprised If you find me with another lover.I dont want to fade away.Give me one more day please. I dont want to fade away. In your heart I long to stay.

number 6

inxs-never tear us apart

Dont ask me What you know is true Dont have to tell youI love your precious heart.I, I was standing You were there Two worlds collided And they could never tear us apart We could live For a thousand years But if I hurt you Id make wine from your tears I told you That we could flycause we all have wings But some of us dont know why. I, I was standing. You were there. Two worlds collided, And they could never, ever tear us apart

number 7

david bowie-kooks

for their son... so adorable :)

Will you stay in our lovers story If you stay you wont be sorry cause we believe in you Soon youll grow so take a chance With a couple of kooks Hung up on romancing Will you stay in our lovers story If you stay you wont be sorry cause we believe in you Soon youll grow so take a chance With a couple of kooks Hung up on romancing We bought a lot of things to keep you warm and dry And a funny old crib on which the paint wont dry I bought you a pair of shoes A trumpet you can blow And a book of rules On what to say to people when they pick on you cause if you stay with us youre gonna be pretty kookie too Will you stay in my lovers story If you stay you wont be sorry cause we believe in you Soon youll grow so take a chance With a couple of kooks Hung up on romancing And if you ever have to go to school Remember how they messed up this old fool Dont pick fights with the bullies or the cads cause Im not much cop at punching Other peoples dads And if the homework brings you down Then well throw it on the fire And take the car downtown Will you stay in our lovers story If you stay you wont be sorry cause we believe in you Soon youll grow so take a chance With a couple of kooks Hung up on romancing Will you stay in our lovers story If you stay you wont be sorry cause we believe in you Soon youll grow so take a chance With a couple of kooks Hung up on romancing

number 8

fleetwood mac-everywhere

Can you hear me calling Out your name You know that I'm falling And I don't know what to say I'll speak a little louder I'll even shout You know that I'm pround And I can't get the words out.Oh I...I want to be with you everywhere.Oh I...I want to be with you everywhere(Wanna be with you everywhere)Something's happening Happening to me My friends say I'm acting peculiarly C'mon baby We better make a start You better make it soon Before you break my heart.Oh I...I want to be with you everywhere.Oh I...I want to be with you everywhere(Wanna be with you everywhere)Can you hear me calling Out your name You know that I'm falling And I don't know what to say Come along baby We better make a start You better make it soon Before you break my heart

OKAY.. THAT'S ALL FOR NOW.. TO BE CONTINUED...

XO

SARA

first, we'll take manhattan

come to see me, we can be lovers together.

i like the closeups of the back up singers.
love, erin

ladiesss

Hey. I'm on Hilton Head about to go to Hinoki with Jill.
I wish you guys were here and we could... hang out...
I don't have internet at home right now. I moved across the room and live with 3 more girls! They play music and do a lot of crafts.
I want to go to New York... Sara, let's plan a trip when we both go.
I want a hair cut really bad. Almost bad enough to where I might chop all of it off myself.
It's so damn hot and I don't have any A/C in my car... I think it's killing me.
I love you
Jeanine

stayed in bed all morning just to pass the time

SHIT. i love carole king. for some reason it reminds me of stephanie jones. did we listen to carole king a lot when we lived in charleston?? isnt it weird how we can totally block things out that other people totally remember perfectly? I find this happening more and more. My friend esme has a mind like a steel trap and she tells me things about myself i dont even know. I saw a lot of old friends from El Paso tonight. It felt really good to hang out with people who i grew up with and i trust and who i dont feel are weird fucking people i dont really know and am still trying to figure out. i feel like i keep meeting people or getting close to people and then they like do something weird that totally throws me off and im like aw man i thought you were cool, i thought you werent weird and sure enough... total weirdos. JEANINE, ERIN. WHYYYYYY?

isnt it cute that this is like a high school note we are constantly passing?

i still have the notes we used to write each other in middle school. jeanine, remember the time i got after school detention for you before i moved to el paso? thats friendship :) <3

ya know what else i remember? going over to kacies house before school and she would blowdry her hair upside down and be listening to weezer pinkerton or red house painters or radiohead. and her chinchilla. and we would always miss the bus and erins dad would always be the one who would agree to driving us to school

and to think, one day we will be old.

as i am writing this brian eno "the big ship" came on itunes. PERFECT!

so im off tomorrow and more than anything in the world i just want to have a slumber party with my two most favorite ladies in the whole world! we could wake up and make breakfast and hang out in jammies all day while listening to mariah carey.

Today I was getting ready and thinking about how fun it is to primp and get ready to go out. I love showering and wearing my favorite bathrobe and listening to music and the smell of my perfume!

luv sara

Summer Time in the City

I'm leaving tomorrow morning to look at apartments.
Every one that I've seen on the internet is small and I'm pretty sure it will make me feel crazy. I already live in a shoe box, goddammit.
I'm getting rid of a ton of shit. It feels weird, because I'm such a pack rat.
Will I finally have to break my OCD?
I need counseling, someone to tear things away from me like pieces of paper that I'm convinced will come in handy "one day."

Come stay with me when I get settled. I need people. You can sleep in my living room, if I have one.

love, erin

a hot july moon

Girl you know you're only 17...



I sang "Strawberry Wine" soooo awful at this weird beach bar's karaoke a couple of months ago. I wish so bad you guys were there. I think I even called you.
I wish more we could do it tonight for Erin's birthday. I googled the images for "Erin Riley's Birthday" and this is one of many that came up.
I was talking yesterday about how a lot of times I'll just say I'm 25... or forget that I'm 24. like it doesn't exist.. Might as well just skip to 25 (think it's because JT is). But I've dedicated myself to reminding myself I'm 24 for the next few months I will actually be... Anyway, cherish it, Erin, and remember, you're not 25 yet!

So, I delete these sometimes... because they pile up in my old email's mailbox. but I'm always so glad when I do take the short time.
Here's what happened Erin's last week of 23.

Harper's Weekly Review July 14-21st, 2009

Sonia Sotomayor, who is expected to be confirmed to the
Supreme Court in August, was interrogated for four days by
Democratic and Republican senators of the Senate Judiciary
Committee. Republicans grilled Sotomayor on her legal
positions. Democrats lauded her; Senator Sheldon
Whitehouse (D., R.I.) said that her life story gave him
"piel de gallina," or goose bumps. Sotomayor was, however,
not able to answer when Senator Al Franken (D., Minn.)
asked her to name the one case that Perry Mason
lost. "Didn't the White House prepare you for that?" he
said. Reporters noted that Sotomayor was "a big toucher"
who responded to Republican senators' proffered handshakes
with a warm smile and a squeeze of their shoulders, and
they also pointed out that on the second day of the
hearings, when the judge was asked by Senator Patrick
Leahy (D., Vt.) to explain her "wise Latina woman"
comment, she blinked at least 247 times while answering,
averaging 90 blinks per minute in the morning; that rate
decreased to 50 blinks per minute in the afternoon. At
least four anti-abortion protesters were arrested at the
hearings, including 61-year-old Norma McCorvey, better
known as Jane Roe, the plaintiff in the Supreme Court case
that made abortion legal. A tiny species of Mexican shrew,
previously thought extinct, was rediscovered.

At the convention to honor the hundredth anniversary of
the NAACP, President Obama admonished African Americans
for their poor parenting, telling them they had to start
"putting away the Xbox and putting our kids to bed at a
reasonable hour." Some worried that Obama was no longer
cool after he appeared at the All-Star baseball game
(where he threw a lob ball that didn't clear the plate)
wearing "dad jeans." "I suppose President Obama is indeed
a father, so we should allow him such a strike against
humanity," said one blogger. "I thought he was cooler than
that, somehow." Auditors questioned whether Crocs Shoe
Company, which lost more than $185 million last year,
could remain solvent. The Pope fractured his wrist; the
Episcopal Church voted to overturn a moratorium on
ordaining gay bishops. An amendment to the annual defense
authorization bill that extends federal hate-crimes
protections to gays passed the Senate; and Bill Clinton,
who signed the Defense of Marriage Act that prevented the
federal government from recognizing same-sex marriages
during his presidency, said he is "basically in support"
of gay marriage. Harry and Pepper, gay penguins who since
2003 have nested together at the San Francisco Zoo, broke
up after Harry had an affair with Linda, a recently
widowed penguin who seduced Harry in her deceased
husband's burrow. "To be completely anthropomorphizing,"
said zookeeper Anthony Brown, "Linda seems conniving."
Seventeen-year-old lesbian Cheyenne Cherry pleaded guilty to
charges of animal cruelty for baking her former lover's
kitten in a 500-degree oven, and scientists found that
cats have developed a "soliciting purr" (different from
regular purrs because they are embedded with a "cry") that
can manipulate humans into giving them food and
affection. Walter Cronkite died.

North Korea launched its first television commercial for
Taedonggang beer, the "Pride of Pyongyang," which promises
to relieve stress; stress-relief was also the reason
offered by Japanese manufacturer Wishroom for the success
of its line of male bras. The unemployment rate was rising
for Japan's robots, and, following reports suggesting that
EATR, a steam-powered, biomass-consuming military robot,
could feed on dead bodies, its makers released assurances
that the robot is a vegetarian. Thick dark blobs of
unidentifiable goo were floating in the Arctic Ocean,
divers off the coast of San Diego were attacked by jumbo
flying squid, and at least nine shark-bite survivors went
to Capitol Hill to lobby Senators in defense of sharks. A
German "molecular" chef, using liquid nitrogen to prepare
a dish, blew off his hands, and scientists found that
swearing alleviates pain. Before police rescued him, a
three-year-old Canadian boy spent two hours floating down
Peace River atop his toy truck. Two Chicago teens sneaked
into a 66-year-old man's home while he was watching
television in bed, pulled off his prosthetic legs, and ran
off with them. A brothel in Berlin began offering a
discount to customers who arrive by bicycle. Researchers
found that amphibians enjoy mating by the light of a full
moon.

-- Claire Gutierrez


I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU

Jeanine

BONE MACHINE

GEEZ.

I am IN LOVE

so remember a couple weeks ago after my last trip to natures treasures? well we were getting the looks together for the hair last week and took a trip to feathers to check out some of the outfits for the fashion show. This guy was there getting jewelry together that he is selling at feathers and i had to run back because i had a client, but before i did i could not take my eyes off all this awesome jewelry. my dreams had come true! well, someone got to them before i could... im just going to steal his pictures off of his website so you can check them out... or you can go to viachristachains.com..

these are a couple of my favorites

So.. after pretty much just daydreaming about all of this jewelry.. i went to the "austin fashion awards" (which was hilarious... come on...) and i actually got something good out of it. we won the award for best salon which was pretty cool...and after about 3 or 4 glasses of champagne i ran into the guy and girl (i forget their names!!! eeee) who make this jewelry and confessed my love for it. I told them how much i looove their jewelry and how they have to do a photo shoot with me for my masks kind of like the last one i did. i totally forgot about this until today and i sent them an email.. i just wish i had a photographer since i am terrible with that. Hopefully it all works out, all of their jewelry is amazing. I am going to save money every month to buy a piece! I want alllll of it!!!

I can't seem to shake it. It's got me.

The other night, on a mission to get crunk, I drank more tequila than I ever have in my life within 2 hours. The drink: The La Palapa: muddled lemons, raspberry liquor, silver tequila, and soda water. I had two at a time and 3 really giant shots of jagermeister.
I said things I shouldn't have and don't remember to people I don't know that well (that I work with). I had the worst headache ever of my life the next day. I wish you had been there...

Congratulations Erin!!!!
Remember when we wanted to move there right out of high school? I think this will work better... New York is so awesome...
Now I'll be going to work my 9th day in a row...
But I got a new job at my same old job... I'll be doing minor marketing!

Jeanine says...

I'm feeling the suffocating stress right now with you.
Let's vacate...
But seriously, Erin, live in Brooklyn, you can do it... it's so much cheaper than the city.
Talk to Savannah, she has friends who work in fine dining in New York!
I've made a final decision to go to Brazil in February... no matter what (hence that picture up there). Savannah just bought a round trip ticket for $450. I will do nothing but save my money in order to go.
I'm thinking about starting to study for the GRE's to go to graduate school but I still don't know what I want to do, so that's pretty stupid.
I'm getting new roommates and living in the same house but moving into the master room.
I'll have my own bathroom and painted walls. Maybe it'll help me get my shit together... or make me feel like I have my shit more together.
I should probably just get my shit together.
I love Trouble in Mind... it is stuck in my head all the time.
I'm glad we're feeling ill with stress together. Xanax would be exactly what you're looking for for panic attacks. I should give you my stress book. Remember when I was going to practice things, like progressive muscle relaxation and deep breathing, with you? We should still do that. Keep yoga up.
I miss you guys...

where do we go from here

i'm stressed.
sometimes i just want to fast forward 10 years from now.
i'll be taking vacations. paying bills on time.
why couldn't i have graduated 2 years ago?

i just started working at a gallery, desoto row, as the assistant curator. it's a non-profit gallery and it runs solely on volunteers. so, even though i can put it on my resume and it will look good, i wont be making any money. and jesus, thats what i need right now.

i talked to this lady today about interning with her. shes a photographer in new york who is pretty well known. she said she was concerned because a lot of kids will say "oh yeah i can do an unpaid internship." and then move out to new york, work with her for a couple weeks and find out that they can't afford to be there. i told her i understood her concern but felt that if i could work at a fine dining restaurant for a 3-4 nights a week, i should be okay. she said she'd think about it and call me back at the end of the day.
who knows what will happen.

i have panic attacks. or so i think that's what they are.
it's getting to point where once it starts, it affects me for a long time and stresses me out more. i want to go to a doctor, but i don't want to be put on something that i need to take everyday. just something i can take when i feel like i need it. its not as easy as it sounds, though. no one wants to hand me over a perscription to xanax.

oh well.

i'll stick with the johnny cash theme.
here's another video
he makes me feel better.

love erin

DONT LIKE THE LOOK OF IT DONT LIKE THE TASTE OF IT DONT LIKE THE SMELL OF IT

i really love listening to NIN in my car really loud. it reminds me of driving home from school in my brothers car in high school. i made this a few months ago and gave it away to a friend, then discovered that matt took a picture of it.

I cant post any nine inch nail videos because they are all disabled, so... I will leave you with Johnny Cash doing HURT. This version makes me really sad when I hear it, but its so good.

enjoy

luv sara

SUPERNATURAL DELIGHT

I took my aunt to natures treasures today, my favorite crystal store. I told her about how I gave Matt a citrine crystal when he got a new job. Old merchants used to put citrine crystals in their cash boxes because they believed it would bring them more money. So my aunt bought me a big piece of citrine. It is my biggest crystal. I usually just buy little ones. So far I have two pieces of citrine, 1 amethyst point, 1 piece of pyrite, and 2 pieces of rose quartz. I also have a kind of fossil horse bone. My aunt also has some cool coyote teeth she is saving for me that she found in her backyard. I dont know what my fascination is with crystals and bones ... I also really love teeth. They have rhinoceros teeth at natures treasures too. They're suuuper old. like maybe millions of years... maybe I should quit my career as a hairdresser and become an archaeologist! I also think it would be really fun to go somewhere where there is an abundance of certain crystals and go on a hunt! I have been trying to find somewhere in Austin to go bone hunting.. but im trying to stay away from cattle ranches... that is the only place I hear you can find a lot. I want to find ones that happened naturally... I was telling Tyler my idea about how I want to start this thing called HUNT and do things with old bones and teeth, and she was saying how she wasn't into that, and I was like oh DUH shes vegan, im an asshole. So it got me thinking... maybe I should just look where the animals are all wild and their deaths happened naturally. Matt hung up this roll of paper in the living room and my bone was hanging on the wall on the outside and it fell and broke into three pieces. ( I'm not mad.. it was for a good cause, now we have this cool roll of paper that hangs in the living room and everyone can draw on it when they come over.) Anyways.. I was thinking I could do something with the pieces? Not sure though, yet.

Another cool thing about citrine is that it promotes optimisim and gets rid of negative energy. Oh yeah I used to also have this piece of selenite, which is good for like balancing your energy.. and I had this piece that you could hold between your pointer finger and thumb... Well the day after I got it i was walking out of my closet and I looked down and it was broken in half on the floor! Of course.

luv,sara

hop on board the crazy train

Dear Diary,
Do you think sangria margaritas, beer, champagne, more beer, whiskey sodas are a bad idea when combined? i do.
let this be a lesson to myself...

until next time


Luv,sara

RIP MJ

I'm legitimately sad. Over the past couple of years I've really gotten smitten with Michael Jackson.
I've been watching my Michael Jackson Number Ones DVD. He was the shit.
In memory, I'll be wearing my Michael Jackson's face tshirt circa The Jackson 5 today.
Dirty Diana is my favorite, but damn, they're all so good.

Capturing Disappearances

Tyler's movie staring Justin Barber and Erin Reiley (because tyler can't spell my name right)

Bonnaroo '09

this is some strange, scary man we encountered along our journey.

jeanine eating some kind of fucked up burrito.

erin and troy at david byrne

jeanine dancing with that guy at girl talk

penis graffiti!

when we were being hypnotized

AMERICA!

BILL WITHERS

i love him

luv sara

i saw this video today and it made me think of you, sara. enjoy.

Today I spent my morning/afternoon researching and listening to all the bands at Bonnaroo. There is a lot of terrible stuff, but to balance that a lot of stuff I thought sounded interesting, and definitly bands i am not going to miss. I made my schedule. here are the bands i'm going to see, if I can make it...

Thrusday:
Alberta Cross
White Rabbits
Portugal. the Man (this band has a cool website and music videos, check it out)



The Knux
Chairlift
Passion Pit
The Low Anthem

Friday:
Vieux Farka Toure
Animal Collective
Bela Fleck/Galactic
Santigold (maybe)
Grizzly Bear (maybe)
King Sunny
Al Green
TV on the Radio
Beastie Boys
David Byrne
Phish
Public Enemy
Random DJs like Paul Oakenfold/Girl Talk

Saturday:
Elvis Perkins in Dearland (maybe)
The Wailing Souls (maybe)
Allen Toussaint
Rodrigo y Gabriela
Raphael Saadiq (maybe, troy says it will be cheesy)
Of Montreal
The Mars Volta
Elvis Costello
Bruce Springsteen
Nine Inch Nails (for as much as I can stand)
Yeasayer
MGMT

Sunday:
AA Bondy (only if i can wake up.. so probable not)
Cage the Elephant (same as above)
Erykah Badu
Snoop Dogg
Phish

in other news.. i think i want to move by the end of august.



love, erin

Double things I might regret

an email i just wrote to savannah that goes for the two of you too and all of the rest of you you yous

Hey! I've decided to write you on Ambien which is a decidedly bad decision.
I want to know your weekly diet. Food log for me baby. The style in which you lead your healthy lifestyle, I like. It inspires me when we hang out and I miss you. I'm motivated to get back on a healthy track again and think this time more seriously. I'm also motivated when I'm on Ambien.
I also think I want to be a scientist or a doctor. When I see doctor's on TV I'm sort of jealous. Not the ER kind but I don't know.. the family kind or strangely, the babyOBGYN kind.. not that I want to see vaginas but they're doing cool stuff for people all the time and I like biology and knowing things and helping. My bedside would rock I hope.
Or a scientist... Food scientist! Fucking think up questions and perform experiments. hey hey hey. I'm a dork! Dietician would be fun. World Famous Healthy Decadence Chef.!
Or just boring old human science is really not at alllll boring.
Think I can do it?
Ambien rulez.
You do a lot too.
Tell me what you ate yesterday and today and what kind of activity you did though. Seriously.
I LOVE YOU

goodnight
I LOVE YOU

hot boys

baby you gott.. what i want...

uhm can i just makeout with a hot boy already? like one that i actually like??

please. thanks.

luv sara

i will do this if not...

just kidding :)

I've been feeling so messy and fat lately.
Yesterday I went to yoga for the first time in 6 months. It was awesome. My back hurts bad but in a good way.
Remember the first time we all went to yoga? I didn't sleep for a minute all night and we went to the 8am class. Sara spent the night to make sure I would get up. It seems like it was in high school but it was like 3, 4? years ago. It was so funny and awkward then.
My mom and sister always send me cheesey emails but I really liked this one.

(Sara, it's okay to not want to go out anymore. But it is not okay that we are apart, you're right)

Important Women's Health Issue:

Do you have feelings of inadequacy?
Do you suffer from shyness?
Do you sometimes wish you were more assertive?

If you answered yes to any of these questions, ask your doctor or
pharmacist about Margaritas.

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Dizziness, nausea, vomiting, incarceration
Erotic lustfulness
Loss of motor control
Loss of clothing
Loss of money
Table dancing
Headache
Dehydration
Dry mouth
And a desire to sing Karaoke

WARNING:
The consumption of Margaritas may make you think you are whispering when you are not.
WARNING:
The consumption of Margaritas may cause you to tell your friends over and over again that you love them.
WARNING:
The consumption of Margaritas may cause you to think you can sing.
WARNING:
The consumption of Margaritas may make you think you can logically converse with members of the opposite sex without spitting

Please share this with other women who may need Margaritas. Thank you

it is decided

that either erin or jeanine must move to austin.

i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed one of you or two of you. it isn't the same. am i going through a quarter life crisis? all week i have had this thing where i can not be out and enjoying myself. what is it?!!!!!!?? nothing is wrong. and i feel refreshed for work because of my classes... everything is fine, but something feels wrong. it feels like when you are about to take a trip and you're in the car on the way to the airport and you just know you forgot something but can't remember what...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh

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im going to bed.

luv, sara

lovely

I got my new computer. Its awesome, here is our first picture with my built in camera

yeah, thats right. we're gonna start a home porno biz.
look for us on the internet.
its sexy.

tracy emin

something else for everyone to look at.. check out tracy emin

i love it

http://www.tracey-emin.co.uk/

this website is mostly interviews, but they're pretty interesting

Love, Sara

last night esme and i had the ultimate after breakup friendship slumber party... who needs boyfriends when you have best friends!! we went to clementine and then HEB with matt and got junk food and Fake stick on scars and a mustache. matt gave me his hatt and i was wearing my big glasses and the mustache and we took pictures and decided it would be my alter ego coronel mustard..because he's from CLUE my fav movie that i saw all of ten mins of before i fell asleep..i also got this really awesome squishy ball with body parts and worms inside and this red liquid that looks like blood.

I slept in until 10:30 this morning, I also hit my face on the windowsill in the middle of the night and wondered if I would wake up with a black eye this morning.

I didn't!

I did have a really awesome brunch at blue dahlia... with christina matt and esme..and a mimosa. Then Esme and I went to Domy Books... that place is so cool... everytime I go there I am inspired to come home and draw and paint and make things. I talked to the guy working there and he said if i bring in a condensed version like a book or zine of my stuff he would consider selling it.. that is going to be my project this week. I also thought about taking the book Hart and I made over there... I think I only have like ten copies left, but I talked to Hart yesterday about the mask I made with his dad's quote on it and he said he was glad that it is being put out there in the world.

We went to progress for coffees and then Blue Velvet and Room Service.. I got this awesome blue suitcase with a BIG BLACK UNICORN on the outside.. the inside is like peach silk, and Jennifer offered me twenty percent off cause the lining is a little ripped in one spot..I also got the most awesome bad company tank top it is thin and blue and big and has a dog on it.. and a black John Lennon shirt.. because duh john lennon is my ultimate crush... oh yes and a big 80's hair bow.. I used to love them as a kid. I always had big crazy bows and I remember my favorite outfit was my crushed velvet long sleeved shirt that was sheer from the waist down with flowers all over it, and leggings. my mom always let me dress myself..

I also got a brigitte bardot matchbook because im pretty much obsessed with her.

soo... after having total buyers remorse and being the true shopping addict that i am.. I went and bought some more things at Room Service... some black ankle boots that fold over and fit like a glove :) Black Boots is what I was on a mission for today, and i wasn't supposed to buy anything else.. I also got some awesome dansk black fishnets with lines down the back and a little plate of a man inside of a box that says "PEOPLE ARE NO DAMN GOOD" i love it. but my FAVORITE buy today was a poster about "Tobacco and other habit forming drugs" it has indian subtitles and shows this dude doing all kinds of drugs...I also saw this big canvas of a jamaican guy smoking weed, but I decided I would try and paint my own by looking at the postcards I got in Jamaica.

I am also punishing myself for all of this shopping by not going out and gathering all the clothes I don't wear to try and sell..

Oh yeah and I'm going to San Francisco the thirteenth..so excited to leave town, I think I just need some refreshing...there is nothing like leaving town and then coming back home feeling like you missed the place you live. Last year when I went to New York I felt really good coming back to Austin, I was excited to be back home..

Luv Sara

uhm p.s. i really wanna bone Dwight Twilley...

if someone asks this is where i'll be

looking around my room today- it is a mess. as usual, there are clothes and half finished projects everywhere. i feel kind of confined to this room because i have roommates. i can't wait to live alone. i want to be able to write my name all over the walls and sleep on the living room floor with my glasses on. i want to be able to wake up in the morning half naked and make tea in my kitchen. i also dont care if my home looks like a peacock threw up all over it, which i have had to tone down living with boys. i have to think twice about things being too girlie and wondering which lines i can cross..

the other night i got a little bit drunk... i had a friend over and knocked over a wine glass by my bed and it shattered and i didnt clean it up until the next night.. i mean who cleans up broken glass drunk? i dont. the point is i knew where not to step. i also knocked over a candle in the kitchen... broken glass all over the stove.. had to clean that up.. was drunk, not sure i did such a good job cause my roommate stepped in some the next day apparently. I, however, would have avoided that spot until the glass was picked up. mind you, all this broken glass business happened in one night... not really sure what im trying to say.. but mainly it is... if i lived alone i could avoid the broken glass, but i have to consider others and sometimes you just dont have time for that, or if you are me you are really scatter brained and sometimes just forget things.

i want to come home at two in the morning and stumble around my living room and turn on all the lights and make a lot of noise.

im mostly just waiting to feel "at home" at my home.

shit, i have been complaining a lot this week. maybe i need a drink? maybe i need to break some glasses?

luv, sara

Who Would Believe What a Poor Set of Eyes Can Show You

i started making masks last night but they still haven't dried yet. theyre made out of paper mache and my favorite one has hearts for eyes. im calling the series "you are just like everybody else" mostly im making these because i feel lately i cant relate to anyone. erin i wish you were here so we could do a photo shoot with them. i have a polaroid and a digital camera so i will just do it myself. but you could do a much better job, when will you move here so we can work together again? jeanine that goes for you too.

luv sara

FUN FUN FUCKKK

I got in a car accident today. It sucks.
To make things better, I'm going to a Vietnamese Pho Bac Chucky Cheese place.
It's called Party Kingdom Bistro
and I wish you were there

Party Kingdom Bistro
Thai/Vietnamese, American
1739 Maybank Hwy.
James Island
(843) 795-5701
Prices: Inexpensive ($6-$9.50)
Serving: Lunch, Dinner, and Weekend Brunch

A giant pink octopus awaits your arrival at the Party Kingdom, as do a half-dozen Skee-Ball lanes, mazes of indoor playground equipment, various Taiwanese video consoles, an entire build-your-own-teddy-bear room complete with a 12-foot tall psychedelic-looking mushroom, and piles of candy rivaled only by the cheesy tourist shops lining the City Market. Indeed, it looks as if a giant Asian clown car careened off course, ran over an entire family of Hello Kitties, dragged them through an abandoned Showbiz Pizza Place, and exploded inside the Piggly Wiggly strip mall on Maybank Highway. Throngs of screaming toddlers scuttle underfoot, husbands battle electric terrorists with dual Uzis, and stoned college students — we predict — will soon descend, ogling the electronic flicker of pink video bunnies while munching on fried egg rolls and beef satay.

You could go for any of the dishes and be well served, even by the hotdogs, which could pass muster at The Joe, if they only had pickled okra and hot relish. But most people stop by to try the pho (pronounced fuh), steaming bowls of spicy Vietnamese broth full of tender beef brisket and slippery noodles, served with the requisite plate of Thai basil, bean sprouts, lime wedges, and hot chilies, yet deceptively obscured by the day-glo cacophony of family fun.

Pho may be the national dish of Vietnam, eaten by millions daily, and derived from a cross-cultural amalgamation of French, Chinese, Southeast Asian, and (here at least) American influences, but it hides in the corners of our town, often inside an Asian grocery or on the back page of a Thai menu.

Pho Bac tried to infiltrate the mainstream in Mt. Pleasant a couple of years ago only to pack up shop and move to North Chuck. Their bowls of pho display the deep, complex spiciness of a long-simmered broth, offering the full gamut of permutations including the pho dac biet, the house special that is the Vietnamese equivalent of the proverbial "refrigerator soup," if you happened to have some beef flank, brisket, tripe, and meatballs hanging around in the bottom drawer. Of course, one should always ask for extra beef tendon for full effect.

Down on Rivers Avenue, Pho No. 1 does a brisk business in the H&L Market, even if most people stop by the cash-only restaurant counter to buy whole crispy ducks smelling of anise, ginger, and cloves, heads still attached. On a good day, the "rare" beef won't be overcooked, and the broth will have the redolence of a Saigon market rather than the steamy scent of sweaty socks that leaves you wishing you had grabbed two ducks and run home with some spicy rice noodles, hoisin sauce, and a bottle of Gewürztraminer.

The perfect bowl, the kind that my Vietnamese neighbor Lang makes, squirms with fat noodles in a broth deeply flavored by beef bones and star anise, perhaps with a dash of Srirachi and a few torn sheaves of Thai basil. This kind of pho can be hard to find — which is why people are lining up at the Party Kingdom to farm their kids off to a Japanese whack-a-mole game painted in 15 shades of bright pink.

Lang often travels to China and Vietnam for months at a time, so you'll find us down at Party Kingdom, three-year-old in tow, glasses all steamed up, with a sloppy mess dribbling down our shirts and a big, five-spice smile on our faces. The menu has other stuff too: lemongrass beef skewers; gigantic spring rolls packed with shrimp, noodles, and fresh basil leaves; super-spicy piles of beef salad overflowing with ginger and fish sauce that coat the tendrils of meat; mountains of Pad Thai noodles bound by a sticky sweet peanut crunch, cut only by a cold squirt of lime. And the kids can scarf down pizza, or chicken tenders, or some other American fare, or perhaps branching out to the crispy coconut shrimp, my daughter's favorite.

For me it's all about the pho, but don't even think about asking for my Skee-Ball tickets. I'm trading them in on an AstroPop for dessert.

locomotive baby

"you're never too old to become younger"- mae west

So i have been having this internal struggle with staying home, work, getting up early, drinking, not drinking, cleaning my room, not cleaning my room, kiss this boy, dont kiss that boy. I have taken on another day at work. mostly because i feel like well, i might as well.going out sometime isnt as fun anymore, but then i end up feeling like i live at work and before i know it im home and its already ten oclock by the time i eat dinner settle down and its almost time to go back to work. i love my job and i justify working so hard because i can hear my mom saying "shes young" i always think about that... how everyone who is older says "youre still young" . sometimes you just want to be content to relax and i just cant. and its going on and on and on and you feel like you dont have a second to just be and cant decide whether it feels good or if you feel like a machine. the other day my client asked me how old i was and i said 22 no im 23 no im 24 and for a second i couldnt remember my age. before you know it maybe youre just old. i just get so anxious when i feel like i have started some routine. i cant stick to routines. i made this mix cd the other night. it puts me in a good mood on the way to work. some of the songs are ones i loved when i was 16..some i just heard this year. when i was like 16 kacie played the red house painters katys song. i want to cover this song real bad, but i can only sing it so im trying to convince my roommate to learn the rest. here it is... enjoy

xo sara

1.oh how i miss you-broadcast

2.dizzy dizzy-can

3.some velvet morning-lydia lunch

4.honey power-my bloody valentine

5.don't talk (put your head on my shoulder)-beach boys

6.candy-morphine

7.six different ways-the cure

8.can't seem to make you mine-the seeds

9.i love,you love, me love-gary glitter

10.breaking glass-david bowie

11.no one receiving-brian eno

12.wild wild life-talking heads

13.headline hustler-10cc

14.katys song-red house painters

15. running up that hill-chromatics

16.night time intermission-charlotte gainsbourg

17.what is life-george harrison

18.tripoli-pinback

19.la la love you-pixies

join me

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listen to a new album called dark night of the soul, its a collaboration by danger mouse, sparklehorse, david lynch, and a bunch of other artists from the flaming lips to iggy pop.

-erin

mission fantastic

check out these polaroids by grant worth.

see more at missionfantastic.com

-erin