i'm stressed.
sometimes i just want to fast forward 10 years from now.
i'll be taking vacations. paying bills on time.
why couldn't i have graduated 2 years ago?
i just started working at a gallery, desoto row, as the assistant curator. it's a non-profit gallery and it runs solely on volunteers. so, even though i can put it on my resume and it will look good, i wont be making any money. and jesus, thats what i need right now.
i talked to this lady today about interning with her. shes a photographer in new york who is pretty well known. she said she was concerned because a lot of kids will say "oh yeah i can do an unpaid internship." and then move out to new york, work with her for a couple weeks and find out that they can't afford to be there. i told her i understood her concern but felt that if i could work at a fine dining restaurant for a 3-4 nights a week, i should be okay. she said she'd think about it and call me back at the end of the day.
who knows what will happen.
i have panic attacks. or so i think that's what they are.
it's getting to point where once it starts, it affects me for a long time and stresses me out more. i want to go to a doctor, but i don't want to be put on something that i need to take everyday. just something i can take when i feel like i need it. its not as easy as it sounds, though. no one wants to hand me over a perscription to xanax.
oh well.
i'll stick with the johnny cash theme.
here's another video
he makes me feel better.
love erin
sometimes i just want to fast forward 10 years from now.
i'll be taking vacations. paying bills on time.
why couldn't i have graduated 2 years ago?
i just started working at a gallery, desoto row, as the assistant curator. it's a non-profit gallery and it runs solely on volunteers. so, even though i can put it on my resume and it will look good, i wont be making any money. and jesus, thats what i need right now.
i talked to this lady today about interning with her. shes a photographer in new york who is pretty well known. she said she was concerned because a lot of kids will say "oh yeah i can do an unpaid internship." and then move out to new york, work with her for a couple weeks and find out that they can't afford to be there. i told her i understood her concern but felt that if i could work at a fine dining restaurant for a 3-4 nights a week, i should be okay. she said she'd think about it and call me back at the end of the day.
who knows what will happen.
i have panic attacks. or so i think that's what they are.
it's getting to point where once it starts, it affects me for a long time and stresses me out more. i want to go to a doctor, but i don't want to be put on something that i need to take everyday. just something i can take when i feel like i need it. its not as easy as it sounds, though. no one wants to hand me over a perscription to xanax.
oh well.
i'll stick with the johnny cash theme.
here's another video
he makes me feel better.
love erin
I'm feeling the suffocating stress right now with you.
ReplyDeleteLive in Brooklyn, it's so much cheaper than the city.
Talk to Savannah, she has friends who work in fine dining in New York!
I've made a final decision to go to Brazil in February... no matter what. Savannah just bought a round trip ticket for $450. I will do nothing but save my money in order to go.
I'm thinking about starting to study for the GRE's to go to graduate school but I still don't know what I want to do, so that's pretty stupid.
I'm getting new roommates and living in the same house but moving into the master room.
I'll have my own bathroom and painted walls. Maybe it'll help me get my shit together... or make me feel like I have my shit more together.
I should probably just get my shit together.
I love Trouble in Mind... it is stuck in my head all the time.